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? , in 1985, I was in a fatal car crash. ? . I was driving down the road; another car was coming the other way. We were going to an intersection. And the last minute he decided to turn left, right in front of me. Bamp. Think I had enough time to say:” oh my God, he’s t”, didn’t even to say: “turning”.
Next thing I knew I was looking down the top of my car. It was like “wow, it is very cool”. Now fortunately, I had heard about out of body experiences. I’d never had one, always wanted one. Suddenly, I was having one.
So I look down and I see my car crunched. And I saw the guy, get out of his car and walk over the mine. Reaching and turning my head like loaf. I didn’t quite know that man until later. Then I suddenly lost interest in what was going on down there. Because I saw that white light over here which I’d heard about fortunately. And I said:”wow that is the white light. I’m going.” And there was this tunnel. It seemed very dark but there was this great light at the end. And I really wanted to find out what was this FEELING that was coming through this tunnel of LOVE. And I just sort of thought I wanna go through that and next thing: I was through it. And I was in this place but it wasn’t a place like here. It was an environment, an atmosphere and it was LOVE. It was AMAZING. It was TOTAL BLESS, TOTAL JOY, TOTAL LOVE, TOTAL ACCEPTANCE; total everything is fine and always will be and always has been. It felt like HOME. It felt like that’s where I belong and that’s where I belong and that’s the way it’s supposed to feel all the time. But of course it’s not the way I feel here. So I sort of looked around. And I think I needed to have a concept of place. So suddenly it sort of seemed like a place again. And I looked over to right and I saw all these relatives of mine who had died before and they were waving and smiling. And I smiled and waved. But I didn’t think I was supposed to go over and talk to them because that’s sort of not why I was there. But it was good to see them. And they were all doing (?) great. And I could just feel that.
The next thing I knew I was standing in the middle of a circle of this 12-foot being of light and I’m only 5, 4; pretty intimidating. But not really. Because they felt more like family than the people I had seen. And they felt so FAMILIAR and so LOVING. And I remember saying: “I’m not going back there, because it’s nasty; People are mean and it’s like walking through ? ; just trying to get anywhere and do anything and it’s just bad and I’m not going back. And sort of felt I was having an argument with them, but when I think about it, they weren’t really argument. I was sort of standing and doing like this and they were sort of going : “yes dear. It’s all right dear. You’re doing fine. You can do whatever you want.” And it seemed to go on for this time as period (?). And I really wanted to stay because it was really good there

And the next thing I knew I woke up at the emergency room of the hospital. And said:”oh my God. What happened?” and the nurse said:”you were in the car accident.” And I said:”that’s not what I mean.” Because I wasn’t supposed to come back. But here I was. And boy did it (?) feel different. I mean 3 dimensions when there is not a lot of love is a real difference from where I was.
And it was very hard to make the transition. I knew that I had what they call it “Near Death Experience”. I’d even heard about it, I’d even read about them before. But I didn’t know exactly what you’re supposed to do. It still felt the same. It still felt like here I am in the world and people are still mean to each other. And it’s not that LOVE ENERGY that was there that felt like THE HEART OF GOD. It felt like going back and standing in the middle of the heart of God. And suddenly it felt like I wasn’t there anymore and here I was. I felt like I had been ? like a stone. So they say it takes about 15 years to incorporate about one of these experiences and I think that’s true because my understanding of it changed over the time. And here there’s 2007. So it’s been over 20 years. And here are some other things I’ve learned from this. Your priorities change because you realize that the most important thing is LOVE. The ONLY thing is love. That’s REALLY the only thing there is. Except sometimes it’s expressed as fear, the opposite side of it. And all that petty stuff don’t matter. Of course you (?) change a lot when that happens and people feel weird around you. So you lose friends and you get new ones. A lot of people change jobs. A lot of people get divorced. But you’re incorporating this feeling of LOVE into your life. And I think that’s what people with NDEs really do. And it takes a long time because you’re shifting and you’re changing. And you got (?) a lot of history. So we all know that we came back with a mission. Most of us don’t know what it was at the time. But we know we had one. We spend a lot of time to figure out what that was. And at different times since then I come up with ideas about what my mission was. Now I think my mission and every body’s mission is to be here, in 3 dimensions, in this time, in this space and to HOLD the energy of the light of God. Just hold it. We don’t need to do anything. Just HOLD THAT ENERGY. And as we hold it we help other people around us find that energy and feel that energy. Humanity is changing; humanity is evolving and this is the time. And what all you have to remember is there is nothing out there to fear. You’re a divine powerful being. We all are. We’re all parts of God. We’re all parts of love. That’s who we are. We are the heart of God. And we’re here to bring it out to planeters. To create heaven on Earth. And we can do it in (?) LOVE. That’s why we’re here.

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